No Amputations Required

On Monday evenings I attend a woman's bible group.  We are studying the book of Esther through a Beth Moore series.  The subtitle is called, It's Tough Being A Woman.  My goal is to come out of this study encouraged in the areas of my life I feel insecure.

Since I have been separated from my husband, I have felt at times insecure of what others might "think" of me.  I have questioned if a Godly man will eventually find a divorced 36 year old woman with two children appealing.  I question judgments of others, worry about the gossip, the looks, pray other women do not think I am after their men and most of all, I think about how this path is going to effect my future.

In tonight's lesson, I was amazed out how well the first two chapters of Esther related to me.  Beth gave a wonderful sermon about our past history and our future destiny.... 

"You cannot amputate your history from your destiny.  You are not going to become who God has made you without your history."

I know in my heart that God is up to something within me.  I am going to become the woman he created me to be!  But why all the insecurity?  Because I compare myself too much to others.  My past is part of my future.  Through this divorce, I am going to become complete in Christ (Colossians 2:10).

It's definitely tough being a woman, especially an insecure one.  But "the things we think we are not, are the very things he chooses" ~Beth Moore.